You say you want to be in love, you say you want a soulmate, you say you want a fulfilling relationship. But it is only yourself that you must be in love with.
Only your self
Why?
For many reasons. First of all, your entire world and experience, everything that you think of as reality, is only the mirror of what is within you. If reality seems random, frightening and uncontrollable, it is because something within you is afraid and wants control. The more control it wants, the more is it afraid.
Not a way to live, friends.
It is only yourself you need to love because it is the Self who is loved, when you love. The Self revels and rejoices in all ways and paths to love. When you choose attributes you yearn for and lay them upon the altar of your heart, with all the sanctity afforded by your love and intense gratitude, who but the Self is then invited in? And is this not the entire purpose of your existence here, to choose His love and care over all?
It is only your self you need to love because everything in the outer is but a reflection of what is inner. If you desire love in the outer, as all do, then create the love you desire in your inner space. Use your outpicturings and intentions. You alone are in control of these.
It is really only your self you need to love because when you have been transformed by the attributes you have taken into your experience, you will radiate out strength, goodness, calm, compassion, and all else you have chosen. As like attracts like, other beings and entities with the same attributes will swim into your waters. Those without will seem to slide away.
As above, so below
As within, so without
As the universe, so the soul
Hermes Trismegistus, the Emerald Tablet